You want to kiss all kinds of different people, you want to wake up in a stranger's bed maybe once or twice just to see if it feels good to feel nothing, you want to have a group of friends that feel like a tribe. You want to go from one place to the next constantly and have your weekends feel like one long epic day. You want to dance to stupid music in your stupid room and have a nice job that doesn't get in the way of living your life too much. You want to be less scared, less anxious and more willing. Because if you're closed off now, you can only imagine what you'll be like later.